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managed to d/l this song finally on the mirc after several failed attempts on the websites and p2p. used to like this song alot last time. just been feeling a little nostalgic lately so had cravings for certain songs tat i liked some time ago. nice tune, nice lyrics...guess this will be on repeat mode for awhile!

anyway not much to update on my life....nothing much going on...just the same old mundane stuff of going to sch and being at home online, or with the google box! managed to watch certain shows tat i;ve wanted to like the final episodes of satc and the notebk...and i wasnt let down...both were great!

after 4 long years....the olympics are finally here!! i can once again catch the swim events! yay.....hopefully, hoogie will perform up to his standards again...will be having some late nites this wk due to the time differences. well, i can see him in action today in the freestyle relay yay yay!!!

had a gathering with my gal pals today as it was the birthday of one of them...really look forward to meeting them always as we always have alot of fun together and we can talk about anything under the sun..problems and happy stuff...i can always be my true self with them, cracking lame jokes, bitching abt people, and we can suan each other knowing that we wont get easily offended. first met 2 of them for a bout of shopping....we had to get a dress for my fren's wedding in oct...really excited abt it and i think tat we wont be seeing another wedding in our group for a looooong time! well, didnt really find anything tat i liked, hopefully by then i will be able to! after tat, we went off to 'curry favor' at the city hall area for dinner. the food there was pretty gd and the pricing reasonable. i think our group made a fool of ourselves in the place...as we tend to get a tad noisy when we are together! haa...our loud laughter and lame jokes permeated the cosy and quiet atmosphere in the restaurant....think everyone was glad to see us go! =p after tat, we went off to raffles city to shop a little. espirit was having a sale and a few of us bought the same pair of slippers. hehe to be worn when we go swimming!

in every phase of our life, we will meet different people, friendship forms and we look towards each other for companionship and support during that phase. sometimes, after we leave that phase, we may outgrow each other, as each of us will eventually go on to experience different stuff. tats y i'm pretty thankful to have a bunch of frens who i enjoy being and feel comfortable with even tho we may not meet each other often. everytime when we meet, even tho we may not have met for some time, it does not seem to be a barrier as we update each other on the latest happenings in our life. at this point of my life, being a single and such, friends seem to provide a platform of sanity and some form of companionship to my otherwise mundane, lonely and empty life. and even tho the majority of us are working, i feel that we are still at the same wavelength and unlike my other bunch of frens, we have not outgrown each other and become sorta distant. i feel quite like the odd one out among this other bunch as im the only single one there after my other fren got attached in feb. sigh...one of them, being rather insensitive i feel, suggested to bring their bfs for the next gathering. hmmm...so i'll look like some pathetic lighthouse among the 12 other people and it'll just make me feel worse and more lonely and unwanted. they'll definitely be asking me...so when's ur turn blah blah..dun be so fussy la blah blah..and wat can i say? certain things cant be forced, and i wont do this just for the sake of doing it and make myself unhappy in future. well, hope that this 'bringing all bfs' thingy for the gathering next mth will be trashed or haizz...i'll prob make some excuse and not go.

current listens: stef sun - hey jude and 任性, fan xiaoxuan - rain

                          

I can finally understand now the rave reviews given for SATC, the awards it garnered, and the devoted fans it collected from all over the world. One of the best drama series that I've ever watched. This show is addictive, as I followed the trials and tribulations of the 4 lonely singles on the search for this elusive thing called love in NYC. How depressing can a show get; amidst the sexual overtures and fashion statements lies a much deeper meaning. Every normal person yearns to be loved and we spend much of our time and effort looking for this ideal person with an ideal character to experience an ideal love. However, even though we may meet this ideal person with the ideal character and makeup, we may not experience this ideal love. Carrie met her ideal guy in Aidan who was sensitive, caring, cute, faithful etc but most importantly, unlike Big, he was prepared to be committed to her. He opened up his heart to her, which Big was incapable of doing. However, she did not experience this ideal love for him. Ultimately, it was still with Big that she did so. I guess that eventually when you experience and feel this ideal love for a person...this person will then be your ideal one. Even though Big was such a jerk to Carrie, I was hoping that she would eventually end up with him as they felt right¦. Even for Charlotte, Miranda and Samantha, they found love eventually with people who were not the kind of ideal person that they thought they would end up with. Probably as what Carrie says, if we never veer off course, we may never fall in love. But then, how many ideal people do we have to meet on course before fate decrees that we finally do veer off course and experience this ideal love?  Perhaps it might happen, perhaps it might not. It may come to you and it may leave you. And because this love is so ideal, can we actually experience it again?  Or simply, we may not want to.....and just bask in the sweet memories of yesteryear....

 

i'm going mad at home.....just spend the wkend and today hibernating in my bed and stoning in front of the tv, i feel kinda groggy...sigh, i have to get a life!

i've just finished reading 'the notebook' by nicholas sparks..it was not as good as i expected, the reviews of the book were so good but i guess that his writings weren't really my cup of tea. the storyline sounded sweet, of the unforgettable feeling of first love...how it never leaves your memory and no matter the years that have gone by, or even if your first love has let you down...this memory stays with you. well, it was kinda boring and this was probably bcos i had rather high expectations of it. anyway, i wonder how the movie will turn out...hope the adaptation will be better!

sigh...i dunno wat to type either...its dark outside and everyone's asleep..there's a nice breeze blowing thru the house and the only sound surrounding me is the voice of the DJ from the radio, wat an apt title for her prog.....'ji mo you ren pei'! it captures succintly the feeling that i have now....

tats all for today...to be continued...........

In the material world that we live in, to witness kindness and generosity especially in the working world is definitely not the norm anymore. however today, i experienced this act of kindness that was really heartening.

i have this female colleague who tore her ligament badly when she tripped on a kerb. even after having MC for a month and resting all she could at home, her condition did not improve much. after coming back to work, she was still limping and to her dismay, the doc informed her that full recovery could take up to 6 mths! she has difficulty getting up and down steps, therefore she was unable to take public transport. she could only rely on taxis to and fro from the office. as she was living in the west, adding in ERP and peak hr charges, her daily transport fees came up to $45!! it was definitely financially taxing, yet she could do nothing. to take unpaid leave will mean having to employ a temp who may not be able to help much and leave my boss with alot of work. to stay on will mean an income of a few hundred only after deducting transport. she has 3 kids to help support as well. therefore, she was in a dilemma and was contemplating resigning. it was obvious that she was troubled and depressed lately. thus, this male colleague of mine decided to cheer her up by giving her a surprise bday celebration today! at first, he came by my table and passed me this card to write. i was unaware tat it was her bday actaully. i thot tat was it. he then disappeared and i thot he went to do the inspection on the maintenance conditions. he came after a long while carrying this cake box. he was actually caught in the rain! the female happened to be in the toilet at that point. he bought a choc cake (her fave) and drinks for a party. we fixed the stuff up and invited a few technicians up to celebrate for her. when she came back, she was so suprised and touched. she kept thanking him repeatedly, while the guy said this is to cheer u up and stuff. he even had a present for her! he didnt know wat to get her so he told the salesgirl tat he wanted to get sthg for this muslim colleague and she recommended this watch tat flashed a digital cat pic. my colleague was really really touched. anyway, he didnt have to do all this but yet he did. his thoughfulness and sensitivity kinda touched me as well. it is seldom that we see colleagues behaving in such a manner as usually, we dun even know if we can trust them! however, this man said something that i felt that if everyone did behave in this manner, probably cliche-ishly, the world will be a better place! hee. he said, since we are working together, we should work in a team and take care of each other. when we get along well, it is easier to get things done, and the we will be happier at work as well. how true...a simple principle, yet how many ppl do actually uphold it?

current listens:

a moment like this - kelly clarkson

Things that made me smile today............

been feeling kinda in the pits lately...i dunno why...if its the freakin humidity and heat or changes or that i cant seem to identity any direction of my life...i feel lost i guess or i just do not like the way my life is going now? well its abit of everything....

work sucks....time seems to crawl....my utmost task is to make every teeny weeny assignment given to me stretch. tasks tat i can complete in less than half the time needed....i'll try to 'mor' thru it tat i feel so listless, demoralised n slow. well, summary of tasks did today...being a despatch worker twice (within the bldg), collecting the post, writing a simple letter and doing the framework of my proj. i cld have finished my framework in less than an hr but i took the whole day....haha. just dont wan to end up being idle..i've a month to complete the first draft and its not tough just really foreign to me. i will jolly well make this proj stretch thru out the month. initially thot tat i cld be on the go mostly but i seem stuck in the office most of the time..................................haizzzzzz

anyway just gotten back my results...i actaully did pretty well for papers which i prepared least for. papers which i had most preparation for ie law, i got dismal results. hmmmm guess for future papers....i know wat to do....hehehe.

towards the 3rd of July.........................which feels like eternity..................................................


 

and i have 7 more weeks to go..............................

been dreading work nowadays as i dont seem to be doing much productive stuff....i must say tat i did learn some but i entered this internship with thots tat i'll be learning so much about my choice but now i feel tat prob this attachment is for a course of 'elements of office skills' maybe? when the perm staff returns next wk...guess my job scope will be further narrowed!!!

had some partial insommia last nite....didnt manage to sleep till 3 plus dunno why too...and woke up few times in the nite...therefore felt really groggy this morn...i decided to feign illness and skip work haha. they can dock my pay all they want i dont really care anymore...anyway i'll be just wasting my time there!! next week, i've to go down to one of the offices for a briefing for my proj. gosh i dont know why they picked landscaping lor cos im not taking botanical studies or horticulture or farming wateva...there's alot tat i've to go and read up....i have not grown a single thing in my life er except tou gay for science haha...sianzz...its not even related to wat im studying. anyway...a positive element is tat i've realised tat i will not be going into this field in future.